Going with the flow

There are some people who schedule every little part of their lives, always on a schedule.  There are also people that see where life takes them and go along for the ride.  Though I’m not necessarily proud of it, I fit into the first category.

I make to-do lists all day long.  On my to-do lists, I have reminders to update my to-do list.  I color coordinate classes in my agenda and have a system dictating what color pen is used to write certain types of activities.  I schedule every moment of my day– down to if, and when, I can take a nap and when I’ll eat, literally– when I’m overwhelmed.  I’ve even gotten pretty rattled when a friend of mine took my agenda and added her birthday to my agenda.  It’s not that I don’t care about her birthday, that’s not the point– I like order.

Before you start thinking I’m a not fun, tightly-wound control freak, let me explain.

I like getting things done.  And not just getting it done to check an item off of my to-do list, I like getting things done and doing them well.  My mom has always told me “If you’re going to do something, don’t half-ass it.”  I can’t say I’ve always followed this advice, but if I’m going to do something, I’m going to try to do it well.

That’s why I have to-do lists on my computer, in my agenda, on my phone and written on anything I can get my hands on.  When I’m doing homework, taking a shower or even when I’m driving, I’ll think of something to go on a list (a big thank you to my little sister Alexis for always being willing to write down my ramblings as I drive.  You the real MVP, Lex).

Okay, maybe I am a little tightly wound.  Hi, my name is Anastasia and I’m a tightly-wound person.  Admitting it is the first step, right?  I’m not sure what comes next in the 12-step program, but I’m going to change it up a little.

I’m going to stop.  I’m going to let things happen without scheduling every moment of every day.  I’m going to enjoy what’s happening around me, rather than focusing on what’s due tomorrow or next week for some class that won’t matter in the grand scheme of things.

Enjoying my last semester of college– now that matters.  Spending time with the people I love– that matters.

I know all of these things: it’s not like I had an epiphany this morning.  I made a poster for my wall this summer that says “Do more of what makes you happy” so I’m aware I need to let loose a little more.  I’m just going to make the change now.  I’m not abandoning my love of to-do lists, but I’m going to leave parts of my life unscheduled.  I’m going to go with the flow.

I’ll keep you posted on how it goes. Wish me luck!

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